It's been awhile... please, pleasedon't hate me!

Since my last post I have not only been dealing with a constant migraine, doing family events, work events and all the while ya know... livin' life!!

That is no excuse. I am tryingto be better, really I am but hooooly shiiizzz.  Life goes by a lot faster when you get older. 

Tonight is date night for me and my man.  Fast and Furious movies for the man are HUGE.  My grease monkey is obsessed with them.  I started watching them because Paul Walker is a cutie.  That is when they first were coming out.  Since being around my man, even when we were friends showed me how cool cars really are and his favorites along the way too.

Now don't get me wrong I am slowly but surely learning about cars... I am by far know genius when it comes to cars but  I can tell you certain things.

Date night.  It can be as simple as making me steak and staying in watching a movie or go out and see a movie and dinner...  Did I mention we LOVE movies?  If not, well yeahhh we LOVE them. 

Life lately:

Might be getting a new manager soon at my property.  Which I am honeslty bummed about.  Only becasue then I go back to being an assistant to the assistant manager and also doing my leasing.  I was looking forward to it being the assistant manager getting it, that way I easily could enjoy my weekends.  I had my day of being bummed but now having high hopes that the new manager is going to be good and not someone that  I can work with.


My migraines have been getting worse, hence why I have been barely writting and it's not any fun at all!  Relaxig and reading has been my enjoyment for the last few weeks too!

Well I am off to finish my last few minutes of the endof day cycle at work, and throw on some waterproof mascara for the movie. and get outta the dress I am in.


See y'all soon!

Eeeew... home sick && on my day off

This sucks. It's my day off... Kristen Wiig perfectly portray's how I felt after I got sick after downing my alka-seltzer water... 












Really.  I am beyond words exhausted but feel loads better than I did last night after reading only 1.5 chapeters and early (3-5ish AM) this morning after getting sick this morning.  

Anyways,

here's a little bit of a run down for those of you that don't know me as well as others.

I have kidney deficiency,  I get migraines at least once a week, high anxiety- social and personal, acute (very acute) alopecia, slight traits of dyslexia and OCD,  hypoglycemia, (but not quuuite diabetes) possibly getting worse arthritis in my knees (the are like Rice Krispies but loudness level multiplied by 50, and used to be worse but has toned town a shit ton- hypochondria.

Growing up when I was under 5,  I was a little rollypolly baby hippo, then I was a twig who was sickly skinny and never thought I'd have hips and boobs like my mama.  

Short Story for that:

I got boobs in 4th grade, like whhhaaaaat?!  I remember the girls in my grade noticing I was wearing a bra (private school days,  YAY!) and the actually talked to me on the hill during recess about it!  I am a very quiet person most of the time (mostly because I have a soft spoken voice) but I can be loud and obnoxious, don't hate.

annnywaaays... now I am 5ft6 and am anywhere between a size 8-10. I NEVER in my wildest dreams (like I had mentioned) thought I'd get hips.  I waddle like my dog in a way, they're annoying as hell but I love them, because I want babies, not yet but sooner than later.  I have somewhat of an ass...if I wear my "good butt jeans".  I would LOVE to loose a little more weight around my thigh area put it where my ass should be all the time and a little for the girls, ya know.  They're Big but they aren't BIG. which I am okay with, since I experience back pain daily due to them as is and I know with each kid since I am half of my mama, they are goin' to grow with each baby I pop out.  (I wanted 5, but then decided at most 3 with the man) -that and his dad looked turned and looked at me legitimately scared and shook his head and said NO. when I said I had thought about 5. His dad is one of 5 so he gets it.  

I'm rambling and I'm sick, so this is like uber confusing and I am sorry, hahahaha... no I'm not.

 Here's a mini Corey Matthews  for ya... pretty much sums up where I am at.  Pizza Puff recipe below:

1. 2 cans of garlic butter cressent rolls
2. pizza toppings you love
3. CHEESE- we used moz, because we did basic pepperoni pizza
4. pizza sauce

...ya know how the cressent's are like triangles as individuals, you want them to be squre like when you have two.

1. throw down pizza toppings
2. add cheese
3.  and cook for 10 minutes

BAM!

while it's cooking get your pizza sauce in a dipping dish or on you plate.

Is it pop or is it soda?

Alright...

If you know me even somewhat decently you'd know I used to LOVE drinking Coke/Diet Coke and Dr. Pepper almost every day.  Well with my kidney deficiency that wasn't really helping, it was hurting it.  Now don't get me wrong there are days I miss it- like today.  I'm definitely a lover of Mr. Jack Daniels and Jameson if it's in the budget... and while I usually have it with apple juice or cider, it's now spring here and I kinda had a "the hell with it" and I'm having Pepsi and Jack (but don't you worry I'm chasing that with gulp tons of water) I have decided once a month I will allow myself, only half of one. (otherwise my tummy hates me too)


Now I am not a heavy drinker by any means, but I do occasionally like a glass of wine or a beer- I'm too much of a lightweight to really drink too much anymore.  But if you have types of wine or your favorite beer- let me know! I'd LOVE to try something new! (keep in mind I am a penny pincher/coupon savvy lover)

Now- I grew up saying SODA, the man grew up saying POP.  Which one is it, really?!  in Minnesota it makes sense to say soda but the man thinks not.

Enough about that.  This week it's Luck O' the Irish! St. Patricks Day, and as a girl with a bit more than a wee amount of Irish in my blood stream

Blahhh... is is sad that I am ALREADY feeling it?  Wooo...

This week was kicked off by french toast and sausage for breakfast and now chicken Cesar wraps for dindin.  I will do my best to remember that when I make my pizza puffs to post the picture and recipe!

We have had marvelous weather here in Minnesota, and I LOVE LOVE LOVE it.  We had our first bonfire of the season last night and it was glorious!!!


Enough chitchat. Time to make the man and I our dindin...

My own kind of "March Madness"

As I sit here on the couch, on my day off feeling the breeze of the 62 degrees coming off the balcony (yeah that's right, Minnesota can have warm temperature's) i feel at peace and so much bliss at the moment.  Amy Adams (Enchanted) is how I feel about the glorious weather we are having right now!

It's been awhile once again, since I wrote but I have been busting my ass working 6 sometimes 7 days a week at a time as we (my co-worker and I) are only ones in the office.  I'm being good and waiting to know who the new manager is going to be.  Hoping my co-worker gets it, mostly for selfish reasons of then being able to have my weekends free again.



Aside from that... got my hair trimmed-still growing it out and did good not to cut it, for $10.  Like WOAH!  Since my hair is long its usually $30 at least (since I have long thick hair and its unruly with curls) but since my stylist has now left I had to trust someone new and she gave me an additional discount for being a new client for her.

i'm really not too terribly news worthy right now other than SPRING HAS SPRUNG!

Been 10 days, here's what's been happenin'

Hey you lovely people!

I have been away I know but don't hate me too much!

Last week I had been basically running around like a chicken with it's head cut off and uber stressed at work last week with all the new changes we are making but the outcome is fabulous! (keep reading to find out) 

I had a full weekend off and got to relax, play with babies that are on my man's side of the family and see a lot of my man's family too.  Which I love!

The only real "news" that I have is that I got a mini promotion with in my company! Woohoo!!  Aside from leasing I also now am event coordinator for my site and all the properties we have in Minnesota!  As if you had read my first blog, I am an event and wedding planner too, so this is lovely to hear!

Tonight, I made fried rice with shrimp!

Here's the recipe:

Fried Rice:

• 2 cups of cooked rice- it makes enough for around 6 people or 4 that like bigger portions
• frozen mixed veggies in pan
• scramble (but only use a little milk) 4-6 eggs
•  add cooked chicken or whatever meat or shellfish you'd like
• 1/2 cup soy sauce
• 1/4 cup sesame oil (do NOT use EVOO- extra virgin olive oil, learned that after my first time making it) 

** you can do it all in one pan, if you have big enough- after the rice is made

Yum-Yum Sauce (you can usually get at Hibachi restaurants) 

• 2 Cup mayo (not miracle whip)
• 1/2 Cup water
• 2 tbsp sugar
• 1/4 tsp ground sea salt
• 1tbsp ground garlic
• 5 tsp ketchup
• 1 tsp ground ginger
• 2 tsp franks hot sauce or Tabasco 
• 1 tsp paprika 

whisk together and chill  for at LEAST 4 hours, but over night is soooo much better! (that way they all homogenize together!)

Our lovely creation! you're going to make it and "wam bam, thank you ma'm" me! 

This pretty much sums up how excited and happy the man and I get when we master making it and our love for hibachi! 

Until next time loves! 

It's Sunday... and I'm not at work?

This is weird... I generally offer to work weekends (you get double the pay) and work 30/hrs Monday-Friday but lately since we are looking for a new manager to run my property it's been nothing short but major chaos.  

Valentine's Day with the man was lovely, but holy migraine and shark week is a comin' as of this morning.  Sleeping in (until 8ish until my legs started to spasm and jerk me awake) and doing a whole lotta nothing is amazing! 


I love making the man food as I have said many, many times... but for real, groceries are not what they used to be, damn! spending $100 when I was growing up meant ya got to eat for a whole 3 and a half weeks- sometimes a month, including dessert AND snacks for after school as well as in school every single day!  Now, $100 gets ya enough for  getting by the next few weeks.

Now don't get me wrong.  Living in Minnesota we have Mall of America and it's awesome and I love to shop, but I don't buy anything fully price unless it's really fucking cute or certain jewelry items... back to my point, Costco/Sam's Club are my new Mall of America.  You have no idea how excited this girl gets when she can have Brie or Bellavitano (cheese) or most cheese for that matter but those especially.

I'm a thrift/consignment shopper, and I am NOT ashamed of it.  I have saved (no joke) since one of the places I shop at tells you how much you save each time you buy... *drum roll* over $3000!  I feel like a bad ass.  Although I do clean the stuff with my own laundry detergent before I wear it myself.

If you're like me and pinching pennies and doing what you can to make ends meet and wanna look FABULOUS  check out Plato's Closet, Clothes Mentor... I have a few online ones too but if ya want them, you gotta ask me personally only because then we BOTH benefit


That's all for now really... hope ya'll are having/had an amazing Sunday-Funday!

PS: recipe to come with next post!  With pictures- saaay whaaaat?!

Valentine's Week

This morning we got freezing rain and then lots upon lots of snow... the hell?  I am over it, if it were December I'd be excited but now, no.

Nooow back to the main topic.  Valentine's Day

Love is love, no matter who with.  Whether it's family, friends, significant other or animals.  I have said it before and I will say it again and again, I support LGBT. 

Never miss out on a chance to say " I love you " to someone.  Those are the most powerful little words when put together.  Some say you can over use it,  I think they are wrong.  Love is different to everyone.  I love the man and i also love peanut butter, bacon and Stouffers macaroni and cheese but it's all different variances of love.

Valentine's Day last year was rough, the man and i wanted to go home for a funeral we should have gone to, but weather conditions could have put our lives in jeopardy.  We stayed safe and stayed within 5 miles of where we were living.  Here is where it gets REAL.  It's blunt...

It's weird that a year has passed by and I still think of one of the few people, who in this world, helped talk me off the ledge- so, SO many times.  I'll admit it was because I was scared of what is to come and didn't want to go it alone.  In the blink of an eye, gone.  Every now and then, even when me and his "release" song (where we would dance on my mama's deck like crazy teenagers/lay back and look at the stars on the trampoline, or just sit and talk at night until the sun came up since he was working night shifts to put himself throughout med-school)... or just seeing a damn white mustang like his. 

It's been 1 year since one of the bravest men who was in my life, took his own life.  He may not have been my best friend, but he sure as hell was a damn good one.  He was the kid that would ask if everything was alright and if you said yes with just the right (but actually wrong) inflection would be over in a hot minute.  The one that will take you on a "date" to see a movie you have been waiting to for over a year to see, and is there to comfort you when you break down in the theatre and simply whisper "he should have been the one to take me, he promised". Telling myself "he no longer in pain" is what got me through it, which was hard admitting but is 100% true.

I've lost a lot more than a handful of people to suicide, some you will see me write about, some I won't because they weren't as big in my life as some of the others.  I've had my struggles too(which I am sure someday I'll get into), and it royally sucks.  Feeling alone in a world with billions of people.  

Know this, if you need/want whatever... to talk- I'll listen and be an eye to see (not hear unless you were to call me) and respond with the best help I can.  

This Valentine's Day... say I love you to someone- even if you don't know them.  You never know who you will talk off a ledge without knowing.